I take hundreds of photos every month, and most of them don’t get shared with anyone, let alone online. And yet the moments in time that those photos capture are just as important a part of our story as the other images that I do choose to share.
I originally created this blog as a way of documenting our lives, a way of watching the girls grow into who they’re going to be and a way of remembering who they once were. It’s something I want them to be able to look back on as they get older, because memories fade but (digital) photographs don’t. A legacy, of sorts.
It’s easy (and tempting) to only focus on sharing the fun bits, the memorable parts, the highlights and the celebrations. But I’m learning more and more as I continue through this crazy journey of motherhood and life that it’s really important to me that I capture the ordinary, everyday times that we spend together as well.
The pieces of the jigsaw that fill in the gaps to complete the picture.
The tantalising glimpses into who our girls are becoming.
The chaos, the calm and all the moments in between.
This monthly feature – The Moments In Between – is a space for me to share all of those magical and messy parts of our family life that would otherwise just stay in a folder on my laptop, never to see the light of day.
March was filled with sunshine and rainbows; all four seasons in the space of a month; a lot of tears and frustration; and plenty of little, timely reminders that life can be beautiful even in the midst of what often feels like a million challenges all at once.
Lola is still home with me and will be for the foreseeable future until we figure out some support to help her with the things she’s been struggling with. It’s altered the rhythm of our days and that’s taken some getting used to. I’ve needed to lean into accepting that things have changed from what I thought they were going to be into something new, and to realise that that’s ok.
Energy levels – both physical and mental – have been up and down for all of us. I’m trying to get better at tuning in to each person’s baseline for the day and respond accordingly. It feels like I’m forever learning more about the people I love, even after all these years.
As hard as this month has been, it’s felt different. Something fundamental has shifted and although I’m not sure what that is yet, I’m hopeful that it’s the start of an upwards trajectory. The warmer months are coming and I can feel things beginning to unfurl that have perhaps stayed too tightly closed for too long.
This was us in March…